Looking for sangha as a start and practice together.
Our root teacher has shown us the way – whether abandoned or abandoning.
Zoom helps with longing and belonging.
I recognise the sadness of being cut off, but I lose it as soon as we start talking. This re-establishes the connection.
One feels the political pressure to be loyal and not have any doubt. But at the same time it feels really conflicted.
It’s a shadow of what it was.
Sad, but growing up. That’s what we have to do.
I feel I’m being tempered like steel in the fire, seeing more clearly and having to let go of an idealised view.